i miss you

2012-01-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

hi there if you've been visiting my blog wondering what the hell happened to me, i moved lol sorry!

wecanlightupthesky.blogspot.com

but it's kind of dead right now too so yeah. sorry haha i'm a terrible blogger!

2011-05-09T15:08:00.001+08:00

天涼了　雨下了　妳走了
清楚了　我愛的　遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放　放不掉　淚在飄
妳看看　妳看　看不到
我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
我不能就這樣失去妳的微笑
口紅待在桌角　而妳我找不到
若角色對調妳說好不好

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

妳的笑　妳的好　腦海裡　一直在繞
我的手　忘不了　妳手的溫度
心碎了一地　撿不回從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

i just realised, how different things were a year ago.
when everything seemed so much simpler.
when everything seemed so much brighter.
when everyone seemed so much happier.

when we were still possible.
memories. they're nothing more than cursed blessings.

2011-04-28T18:07:00.000+08:00

went shopping with lexine, lewin and rachel ee just now! it was awesome fun!(: but it was so freaking tiring! my legs are like dying now, wts):

physics and lit papers were... )': okay larh, i expected the bad-ness): sighh if only the lit paper were as easy as the FA (i resent my FA to ms chin and she gave me a 13 from a 10! :D) but ohmans the actual paper will be like 1 or something):

now i'm only left with math and a number of PTs!(: but ohmans i still feel as if i could have done better for the lit paper): sigh whatever larh, it's over(:

sigh so disappointed in myself. and i thought i could possibly have done well this time after my fa): shit larh all this effort wasted...

2011-04-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

P.P.P.S I’m going through your authority to help Misheel and Hwa Jin, because both of them have a deep-seated fear that I’ll rape and marry them. Consequently, they have sought to distance themselves from me in all channels. I’m confused… because even if I did rape and marry them – is that such a bad thing? Perhaps, you can enlighten me on teenage psychology when we meet. Again, the very thing that perplexes me, is the very thing that impresses me, most men would not think or act the same way as them. Therefore, it is only HCI and HCI only, that is worthy of educating these two young gentlemen who are immensely afraid of encountering beauty and brains in the same individual.

HAHAHAHAHA CAN SHE JUST SHUT UP AND GO DIE NOW?!

2011-04-25T16:00:00.002+08:00

P.P.S In the name of self-interest, I believe more exchange programs should be established between HCI and SNGS, my alma mater. This is because SCGS and MGS girls are generally four and five letter epithets that I shall not mention in a formal letter, and NYGH girls are challenged in the aesthetics department. SNGS girls are by far the best looking, most down to earth, and most hardworking girls in the whole world. We make good girlfriends, wives, mothers, and grandmothers. If HCI boys are sensible, they’ll petition for more contact with SNGS girls.

HAHAHAHAHA. -SPEECHLESS-

2011-04-25T15:57:00.002+08:00

b) Allow me to mentor Soh Hwa Jin of HCI twice a week, two hours each, in the HCI canteen. Hwa Jin is the pivotal reason why I defected to HCI. I shall recount the story to you in private. Most importantly, his appearance has caused the entire “Talent Pageant” to be voided. He is highly intelligent, extremely courageous, quite an annoying asshole, and, saving the best for the last, out-of-this-world handsome. The reason why I ask your permission to mentor Hwa Jin is that, outstanding boys like him have been indoctrinated from young by ugly incompetent, and most likely female, teachers that all beautiful women are extremely dangerous. Beautiful women are likely to be sluts, bimbos, or money-grabbing mercenaries. I do not entirely disagree with the above. However, I would like to present myself as an exception.

OHMYGOD JINGYI! IS THAT...? O:
haha i cant believe she said that! HAHAHAHA LAUGHING MY ASS OFF NOW BAI.

2011-04-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

i missed 11.11!)':

ohno haah i think i'm seriously going to screw up literature and physics. i've never listened in physics class (it doesnt help listening, trust me. i've tried! i sleep in class selectively okay!) and i just dont know what to do for lit D:

everyone knows the points, but i'll lose out on the essay part, which is the most important, because sometimes i just cant protray my idea in a better way. like now!

sigh i'm so screwed): and i havent done my jiang homework! my mom's slacking off with checking my tuition hw after checking it for like damn long ever since i didnt do tll hw for like 2 months, but i dont want to slack off too! i'm going to prove to myself that i do have hope in conquering chinese(:

ohmygod next week's going to be another week of results and exams and more results and more exams)< idk how i'm supposed to live through the week without swollen eyes everyday, dammit! D:

whatever. i'm just going to concentrate, stop blogging and tweeting and tumblring, and start revising.
how i wish i could be more of a mugger, then mugging wouldnt be such a painful thing to handle D:

going to mugg lit now. bye(: jiayou with your mugging too yeah! cos i know that people my age wont do anything much other than mugging and staying on the comm. and maybe running(:

speaking of which. i didnt go running today cos i was supposed to do physics. but i ended up watching tv, so heh! /:
i cant believe i compromised on my train-my-stamina time!): i dont have discipline!): (and i thought i got used to running once every week ever since the year started!) haha i'll go run tmr then(: but no wait i just washed my hair today! TSK OH SCREW IT, I WONT GO RUNNING THEN): sad):

i can just feel my fats growing right now, oh dang)':

2011-04-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

ohmygod that day ms loh asked the person who left her notes on the teacher's table to come and collect it and i was inwardly laughing at that person for being so careless, and today i realised that it was mine! ohmyshit. tsk whyyyy! D:

gah now i cant do structure of graphite for chem pt, cos i have the synthesised version in my notes; the stuff on the internet are like damn messy! D:
gonna start on properties first, then):

shit larh now i have to wait till monday to go get it back D:

2011-04-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

shit, tomorrow's here D: (refers to one of yesterday's posts)

sigh going to mugg like mad today. morning's for pts, afternoon and night for physics. finished reading waves and electromagnetic waves from the textbook, now i'm left with sound and light, then read the powerpoints, which should be pretty fast, since i already have the facts from the textbook, then review the worksheets and assignments and then do some other assessments and i'm done!(:

shit i'm so screwed for lit, and lit is like definitely counted in my new gpa system thing cos that's like the only humanities subject that i'm taking! ohmyshit. i still cant find the handout, in case you're wondering)<

sigh whatever, physics is more important, i want to get that 4.0! lit i dont really care larh, cos my parents know that it's difficult, and neither of them can do it, so they wont kill me if i fail(:
but arh i want that 4.0 too! then can at least pull up my average gpa in case i fail chinese! D:
tsk why am i so paranoid, only 2 results came out so far!
but still, i have a feeling my average gpa's going to be very very low. shit larh D:

okayokay i'm going to do my chem pt now. i still dont know what thingum i'm going to do, and almost 2 weeks have passed! screwed! D:

2011-04-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

didnt eat lunch today cos i'm punishing myself for eating too much yesterday, so that i dont feel like i'm actually turning into a true glutton. except i'm freaking hungry now (maybe i am a glutton ._.), but i cant tell my maid cos i told her that i wasnt coming home for lunch when she asked me this morning, and if i tell her now she's going to hate me! plus, daddy took leave and i told him that i ate already! and snacking is bad (it makes you even fatter) so there's nothing i can do! D:

hopefully homework will take my mind off my stomache haha. i'm growing fatter, gotta go on a diet soon anyways. maybe after exams are over, because it's practically impossible for me not to snack on weird random stuff when i'm mugging for exams. probably one of the reasons why i'm growing fatter D:

2011-04-21T14:36:00.000+08:00

haha ohmygod during chinese today i cut out justin bieber's picture from the chinese newspaper. i think i'm nuts, i dont even like him that much. but he's still cute!^^ and hotter than every other guy in the newspaper duhh, unless you call pimply guys hot. which cassia does, unsurprisingly (she wants to get used to uglier guys cos she thinks that those are what she's gonna be left with haha ohmygod whuttt)

anways. i'm planning to paste his face next to the other poster i have of him(: but ohno that means my posters of him will be the same as the posters i have of shinee!): no. shinee must be more! haha imma stick it on my cupboard then(: then i'll look forward to taking books teehee!(: or i can paste it in front of my desk! everytime i look up i see him staring at me TEEHEE OHMYGOD GOOD IDEA RIGHT!^^

haha fine i know i'm supposed to be doing my physics extension right now, but idk how to do! like the questions are so vague, and how would we know if a particular model is the most current and modern one? what if while we're researching they come up with a new one, then wont we be researching on the wrong crap? sigh yknow what, we should just leave that research to the last minute, then the most modern one would actually be the most modern one and not the most modern one before the most modern one came out. geddit?(:
HAHA kay no you dont /:

fineee i'll go do it now. ciao~

seriously since when did i start loving justin bieber? i dont have time to fangirl! D:

2011-04-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

thinking about you every single day.
though i know it's never going to happen.

just let me live in my perfect little fantasy.

2011-04-21T14:17:00.000+08:00

haha it's so ironic, isnt it, that i didnt get 4.0 for the subject that i was sure i would, but i got the 4.0 for the subject i was sure i wouldnt. sighh. but haha at least now my average is 3.8. not accurate though, cos i only counted 2 subjects. add in chinese and it'll be like 1.0 D:

shit i still havent told my dad my GA marks. I've been getting consecutive full marks until like this one. daddy's going to kill me!):

ohshit whatever. going to finih all my homework now, then can leave tmr and the day after and the day after for mugging physics and lit and other pts!^^

ohmans suddenly i dont want tmr to start):

2011-04-20T18:14:00.000+08:00

i dont want to let it go.

maybe i'll just hold on to it forever and ever. to remind myself of what complacency could do to you. i wasnt really complacent though, i just overestimated my abilities. which is around the same thing. they both lead to unhappiness anyways /:

but why. i worked hard, really. i took notes from like the first lesson all the way to the last. i listened. i cared. dont i deserve that 4.0? a 3.6 was seriously not what i was working so hard for. nothing less than a 4.0 was on my mind whenever i thought of chem.

maybe i just wanted to payback to the teachers for giving my a 79% in sec 1. but now i realise, maybe that is what i am worth. never the best.

all i wish for now is to not see the disappointment in my parents' faces.
i'm such a lousy daughter, i cant even be their pride and joy. what exactly did they raise me for, to be a parasite and waste all their money?!

how i wish my sister can get out of my room right now so that i can let my frustration out, else i'd have to do it while i shower, which my get my mom mad cos she'd think i'm vaining about in the bathroom, which i never do. fine, once or twice. ._.

2011-04-20T18:00:00.000+08:00

不论在生活中，还是在网上

人人都会有朋友

朋友是什么

朋友就是彼此有交情的人

彼此要好的人

友情是一种

最纯洁、最高尚、最朴素

最平凡的感情

也是最浪漫、最动人、最坚实

最永恒的情感

人人都离不开友情

你可以没有爱情

但是你绝不能没有友情

一旦没有了友情

生活就不会有悦耳的和音

就死水一潭

友情无处不在，

她伴随你左右

萦绕在你身边，和你共渡一生

朋友是一种相遇

大千世界，

红尘滚滚

于芸芸众生、茫茫人海中

朋友能够彼此遇到

能够走到一起

彼此相互认识，相互了解

相互走近，实在是缘份

在人来人往

聚散分离的人生旅途中

在各自不同的生命轨迹上

在不同经历的心海中

能够彼此相遇、相聚、相逢

可以说是一种幸运

缘份不是时刻都会有的

应该珍惜得来不易的缘

朋友是一种相知

朋友相处是一种相互认可

相互仰慕，

相互欣赏

相互感知的过程

对方的优点、长处、亮点、美感

都会映在你脑海，尽收眼底

哪怕是朋友一点点的可贵

也会成为你向上的能量

成为你终身受益的动力和源泉

朋友的智慧、知识、能力、激情

是吸引你靠近的磁力和力量

同时你的一切

也是朋友认识和感知你的过程

朋友是一种相契

朋友就是彼此一种心灵的感应

是一种心照不宣的感悟

你的举手投足，

一颦一笑

一言一行，哪怕是一个眼神

一个动作、一个背影、一个回眸

朋友都会心领神会

不需要彼此的解释

不需要多言，不需要废话

不需要张扬，都会心心相印的

那是一种最温柔、最惬意

最畅快、最美好的意境

朋友是一种相伴

朋友就是漫漫人生路上的

彼此相扶、相承、相伴、相佐

是你烦闷时

送上的绵绵心语或大吼大叫

寂寞时的

欢歌笑语或款款情意

快乐时的

如痴如醉或痛快淋漓

得意时的

善意的一盆凉水

在倾诉和聆听中感知朋友深情

在交流和接触中不断握手和感激

朋友是一种相思

朋友是彼此的牵挂

彼此的思念，

彼此的关心

彼此的依靠

思念就像是一条不尽的河流

像一片温柔轻拂的流云

像一朵幽香阵阵的花蕊

像一曲余音袅袅的洞箫

她有时也是一种淡淡的回忆

淡淡的品茗、淡淡的共鸣

朋友是一种相辉

朋友

就像是夜空里的星星和月亮

彼此光照，

彼此星辉

彼此鼓励、彼此相望

朋友

也就是镶嵌在默默的关爱中

不一定要日日相见

永存的是心心相通

朋友不必虚意逢迎

点点头也许就会意了

有时候遥相晖映，不亦乐乎

流星虽逝美好的愿望依旧在心底

于是所有的日子都轻松

于是所有的负重都甜美

于是不会再后悔

于是不会遗憾未了又遗憾

于是过去了的成为回忆

于是今天拥有的不会再无奈

拥有过的,永远不会失去

没有得到的,亦无须苦苦追求

是你的,迟早都是你的

不是你的,永远都不会属于你

只要你不为天长地久而苦恼

不必为失去的而遗憾

不必留恋昨天

只在乎曾经拥有

男人女人们的友情:

不知是谁说过,

男人的友情是写意，

女人的友情是工笔

男人的友情是物质的，女人的友情是精神的

男人的友情多为锦上添花，女人的友情多为雪中送炭

男人之间多是一起笑的朋友，女人之间多是一起哭的朋友

haha found this while doing random research for my chinese compo rubbish. it's so true! especially the last line!

what a coincidence, it just happened today. i know it was bad of me to be weeping when there are people who failed, but it wasnt like anything i could control.

i cared. and i thought i could do it. i let myself down.

maybe i'm just stupid, i cant seem to get anything right anymore.

i wonder if mommy'll be upset. but it doesnt matter, because i know that i am, and i wont be able to forgive myself so easily. what did i do wrong, to get something like this? i worked so hard, why is life so unfair?

yeah, i guess i'm just really stupid.

and to think; i was so confident in myself. now i realise what it was - hubris.
it was my bad, to think i could do at least something right. i guess i really cant.

2011-04-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

finished all my homework in like an hour plus. haha in your face, stupid homework!^^

but dammit i'm very scared for the exams next week. havent started revising, and the thing is i cant start cos there's just so many things to do, and it's so overwhelming. oh and i still cant find the tll handout. sigh where the hell is it! D: tsk fml! D:

gonna go find some stupid good phrases to use for the yilunwen that we're doing in class next mon, then i wont have so much to do then(: teehee ways to lessen your workload in class!(:

i miss you damn a lot larhhhh. idk when i'll ever get over this addiction. tsk it's so annoying cos i dont even like you, i just need someone to talk to, and sometimes i feel like i'm using you and wasting your time, but at the same time i just cant save you from me, because that would mean i'm depriving myself. plus, every human is selfish and always thinks about themselves first, so i'm sorry(:

okay i'll go find the chinese phrases now, then i can either slack on the comm some more or go to sleep(:

sigh i need to find people who are still using blogger, cos i'm like damn lonely now! and this is supposed to be what, a social networking site?! it sure doesnt feel very social-ish to me!

2011-04-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

love.
it gets you nowhere. really.
all the heartache;
tears;
wasted 11.11 wishes;
crushed hopes;
destroyed dreams;
heartbreak.
where have they ever gotten you?

haha just be like me and have a non-existent love life, at least until you get to uni, yeah! love destroys your grades and your health and your future! (that's way over-exaggerated, but still)

haha okay fine i admit, i dont like studying so i came back. tsk it's boring okay! it's so hot in my room, but my sis is at home so i cant turn on the air con (she'll come in and pester me until i turn it off D<) and i cant concentrate on the words!

my muscle-ache is still here D: plus a headache, so ohmygod i want to sleep!

sigh okay i'll stay on the comm a little longer, till it's time to eat dinner, then i'll go and study for tmr's math ga after i shower.

haha if i get full marks for tmr's ga, then i dont need any more full marks for the first half of the year, cos i'll alr have 3!^^ but there's only 1 left after tmr's, so... /:

might come back again if i get bored haha. kaybye~

2011-04-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

deleted that post, because she follows my tumblr, and i posted on tumblr that i'm using blogger again. i just dont want to start that whole freaking issue all over again. i'm seriously damn tired of you and all the damn drama. which, somehow, i'm in. i dont even remember how the hell i got included in everything! (maybe everyone loves me, so i'm included in everything teehee -egoes-)

ohyeah, now i remember. it was nothing i did, it was something the other did and someone told me. ohyeah. dammit two people told me the same thing, except the roles switched. who the hell am i supposed to believe?!

yknow what? screw that, cos i dont like! i'm going to go mugg (for real) now, byebye!

2011-04-19T17:20:00.000+08:00

haha made a new tagbox cos my old one was spammed by stupid advertisement shits. one of the main reasons why i moved on to tumblr haha. but i miss you, bloggy!): so i've decided imma try to update you both! tumblr will just be for tumblr-ing, and you'll be for posting/venting/ranting/highing/hiding from faith, cos i need to payback that she knows my tumblr but i dont know hers. hehe imma use you as a weapon!^^ though i'm not really using you, it's different! haha okay fine i kind of am, but you were meant to be used (sorry!) so it's okay(: [hurhur did i just accept my own apology?! O.O] ohmygod i've gone nuts.

OHMYGOD IT'S FREAKING 5. I KNOW I TOLD SHIBEI THAT IMMA WATCH TV ALL THE WAY UNTIL MY DADDY GETS BACK, BUT I CANT HELP IT, I NEED TO DO MY HOMEWORK! D:

speaking of watching tv, i watched okto today! it was the most retarded thing i've ever watched, seriously. it's like dora the explorer, except you dont just talk, you move along. like if you want to call the wizard, you have to make stupid circles with your finger so that it lights up her energy bracelet or something like that. and if you want to get to some stupid door you have to run on the stop. wth, how the hell does running on the spot get you to the freaking door?! the most wasted 15min ever. gosh.

okay i shall go do my homework now! -pouts- someone come save me!):

probably getting back our chem papers tmr. i hope i didnt fail. i studied really hard for it, but i had a mind block! (the classroom was too cold! -points at aircon- sigh all my excuses D:) but yeah. and i didnt top the class, even though i mugged so hard)': but haha it was ben! (i think. ms loh said she did well, but she didnt say if she topped.) so it's okay(: at elast it wasnt the major muggers! haha i wanna top them, like a boss, babe!~

OH HOHO SPEAKING OF WHICH. I HATE THE PARTY ROCK ANTHEM SONG. I KNOW IT'S ADDICTIVE TO SHUFFLE AND EVERYTHING, BUT STILL! IT'S SO COOL IT'S ANNOYING!)<

and the shuffling-dancing part can make up the whole mv! that'd be nice! (Y) but haha the guy in white reminds me of mr desouza, idk why!

okay gonna go do some serious mugging, tmr got GA! D: but it's only for 2 ws, so it's okay(:

everyday i'm shuffling~ haha seeee now it's stuck in my head! annoying song):

2011-04-19T16:43:00.000+08:00

found all my learning lab literature handouts yesterday. but ohshits i cant find the one where they teach you all the literary devices like onomatopoeia, whatever way it's supposed to be spelt, and everything. i remember taking it out to revise like last year, and now i cant find it. you know how i'm like after exams; dump everything on the bed, then go out to play. ohshit how! D: gah should have photocopied while i still could larh, now i have nothing. nothing! D:

shit i miss you. hell yeah i do. i never really realised until i read all my old blogposts and realised how many were actually for you. but duh i didnt state your name larh, so all you retards reading this dont try to hunt down the person i'm refering to yeah!

should i or should i not? i can go back if i do something, but do i really want to? i know what we are now sucks, but what we used to be sucked for me too. i just dont want to go around wasting my time when i have better things to do than playing your stupid lame games and compromising with you.

there was a reason i let my mom make me quit, there's a reason i stopped rebutting; because i realised i wanted it as well.

maybe everything did turn out for the best after all. it's about time you stop whatever you're doing and get yourself out of my life.

a guy like you is not worth having. really.

2010-09-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

I lie awake again, my bodies feeling paralysed
I can’t remember when
I didn’t live through this disguise
The words you said to me
They couldn’t set me free

Im stuck here in this life i didn’t ask for
There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

The storm is rolling in
The thunders loud it hurts my ears

Im paying for my sins
And its gunna rain for years and years

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more
Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more

2010-09-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

you were once her one and only, but now you're nothing to her.
blame time, blame tide.
but most of all, blame yourself.

you let her down, you gave her up.
she's broken, and it's your fault.
what are you going to do?

does it matter?
she doesnt care anymore.
you dont have you either

giving up
it's so easily to accomplish
but it's so difficult to understand why.

2010-09-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

it’s nature that love dies out, right? isnt that what makes it beautiful?

falling in love is like the sunrise or the sunset. it only happens when it does, and once you miss it, you’ll have to wait for a long long time to catch it again. that’s what makes it special, it’s like it’s limited edition, you know? you cant have it all the time.

or you could say it’s like a candle in the dark. it lights up your world, but only for a while, cos after it dies out, you’re in that same dark place, but this time missing that tiny little candle. it's because you once had that little candle that you crave for it. you crave for it to light up that room again; you crave for it to give you the warmth it once gave you. imagine, if you never had it, would you have known what it felt like? would it leave you wanting for more?

that's what love does to you. it feels you with the joy you had always wanted since young, then it leaves you dangling there wanting more. it's like a drug, calling out to you.

you're addicted to it. but you don't mind. no one ever does.

sometimes it’s separation that brings you closer together. sometimes it’s the parting that makes you realise how much you dont want to lose that person. sometimes it’s the goodbye that makes you realise how much you love that person; how much you cant let that person go.

never let faith go that far unless you’re 100 percent sure it wouldn't stab you in the back. because once your faith is shattered, you have nothing to bring you through life. nothing to keep motivating you to live on; to love on.

too tough to die;

but too weak to live.

2010-09-05T10:54:00.000+08:00

it's time to run.
it's time to let go.
it's time to leave everything else behind.
it's time to move on to somewhere you wished would be better.
it's time to throw it all away.

because you're just too tired to keep hang in there.
because you're just too tired of waiting for something that didn't exist.
because you're just too tired of hoping that everything would be okay soon.
because you're just too tired of thinking that this is the worst everything can get.
because you're just too tired of facing failures over failures with nothing getting better.

after years of thinking for others,
do you have the right to be selfish for once?
do you have the right to hurt them for the rest of their lives?
do you have the right to abandon everything you have here and leave this place?
do you have the right to let go of it all and save yourself from everything here?
do you have the right to do something you really want to?

no you don't.
you don't have the right.
you don't have the right to choose what you want.
because you've made the wrong choice that brought you here.
you don't have the right to abandon everything here.
because you've brought them upon yourself.
you don't have the right to hurt them for the rest of their lives.
because they hadn't done anything wrong.
;there's nothing you can do about that.
it's life.
move on.

2010-09-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

quoted from clara:

The movie was awesome, as usual, with lots and lots of Jacob-Bella luvvv! <3 Sandy got her nachos dumped on her lap somehow…and the movie was exceptionally interesting this time round because of this scene:

Outside their tent, Edward and Bella come face-to-face with Victoria and Riley. Victoria and Edward fight, and eventually both Victoria and Riley get a hold on Edward. Bella stabs her arm with a shard of rock, distracting Victoria and Riley with the scent of her blood, and Seth manages to kill Riley while Edward takes advantage of Victoria’s distraction to bite her head off.

Victoria’s body lies on the ground, her head disconnected from her neck.

Audience: -complete silence-

shuyun: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

Audience: *laughs nervously*

TOTAL AWKWARDNESS, I TELL YOU.

Some woman in the row in front of us was gawking at shuyun and “Who the heck is this retard??” was written all over her face haha.

it was funny! it really was! i'm not sadistic or anything! D:

2010-09-04T17:51:00.002+08:00

HI BLOG! I'M NOT ABANDONING YOU ANYMORE! :D
teehee arent you glad?(:

2010-08-31T18:23:00.000+08:00

i'm abandoning this blog): but i'm not gonna remove it, cos it has all my precious memories(: moving on to tumblr, but it doesnt have a cbox, so you can continue leaving tags on this one(:

wecanlightupthesky.tumblr.com sorry bloggy, i just dont have the time to blog on both blogs):

2010-08-28T14:22:00.001+08:00

i was always sure that i would take trip science geog. i always thought that trip science lit was the last thing i'd ever ever take. but maybe, just maybe, i'd change my mind about geog and lit.

i dont know what happened between geog and me. we dont seem to have that kind of chemistry between us anymore. my geog grades have been deproving since the first geog exam. i got full marks for that, so i didnt expect myself to improve, but after that my grades just kept sliding downhill. and a very steep hill too.

geog has always been a subject i can rely on to get my 4.0s, but now i dont think i can get 4.0 again this for this sem):

just watched "the clique" just now. why do all american movies have to be so cliche? D:
but i totally love massie's dress sense is fab. but well i hate her mouth. like both literally and figuratively.

whatever. i'm gonna go do math now.

2010-08-27T20:09:00.002+08:00

oh shit my blog is dead. but it's okay, cos i'm here(:

dang, a whole lot to do by tomorrow if i wanna slack on sunday. looks kind of impossible):

nah, the taiwan immersion thing is a nope. out of the 20 people in my class who signed up, only 2 got in. but it's okay, cos then i wouldnt have to miss inunion etc (OR MY BIRHTDAY, for that matter :D) that means i just might get to see my TLL friends again!(:

tuesday's coming soon, dont know what i'd be doing at night. probably not hw though, since wed is slack day, and there's no hw due then.

speaking of hw, i gtg. Lit AA's screaming (yeah, screaming) my name): i feel stupid doing my Lit AA (makes me feel like a retard shouting at myself). and my mom thinks i'm nuts (and comes into my room every 5s to check on me) yeah i'm exaggerating about the 5s part, but yeah, it's very often.

okay okay i'm coming, stupid R&J! D: why cant you guys just break up, then we wont have such a miserably sad story to learn / do projects which make people feel stupid?

math is driving me nuts. i havent done 3 worksheets and 2 assignments. dammit i'm gonna kill myself! D:

kay i really have to go. i promise to update you more often, even though tumblr's more attractive(:

2010-08-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

oh shit my blog is dead. but it's okay, cos i'm here(:

dang, a whole lot to do by tomorrow if i wanna slack on sunday. looks kind of impossible though.

nah, the taiwan immersion thing is a nope. out of the 20 people in my class who signed up, only 2 got in. but it's okay, cos then i wouldnt have to miss inunion etc (OR MY BIRHTDAY, for that matter :D) that means i just might get to see my TLL friends again!(:

tuesday's coming soon, dont know what i'd be doing at night. probably not hw though, since wed is slack day, and there's no hw due then.

speaking of hw, i gtg. Lit AA's screaming (yeah, screaming) my name): i feel stupid doing my Lit AA (makes me feel like a retard shouting at myself). and my mom thinks i'm nuts (and comes into my room every 5s to check on me) yeah i'm exaggerating about the 5s part, but yeah, it's very often.

okay okay i'm coming, stupid R&J! D: why cant you guys just break up, then we wont have such a miserably sad story to learn / do projects which make people feel stupid?

math is driving me nuts. i havent done 3 worksheets and 2 assignments. dammit i'm gonna kill myself! D:

kay i really have to go. i promise to update you more often, even though tumblr's more attractive(:

2010-08-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

sometimes, you just dont know what would happen until it actually does.

i didnt tear. i almost did, but i didnt. i'll miss them a lot i know, but well the thought that i had the privilege to have them as friends, even though it was going to end soon, cheered me up a little. they are the bestest tuition buddies anyone can ever find in the world, and i love them(:

and the truth didnt really dawn on me until i was in my car, staring out of the window, and wondering what i'd be doing next tuesday.

krysia~byebye, honey): i'll really really miss you a lot): you must continue to sms me like crazy okay! or else i'd be dead bored in school): anyways, i really had a lot a lot of fun with you, and thank you for being there when i needed someone to complain to, when i needed someone to hear me out. oh and for gossiping with me when i got bored(: btw, i LOVE the pretty necklace you gave me! :D i'm gonna keep it nicely in my cupboard so that it wouldnt disappear! :D

isabel~thanks for being the biggest glutton in the world, and for stealing my m&ms everytime without fail, and for promising to buy me fbts to make up for all the food you stole haha (even though you forgot to get it in the end, i still appreciate the effort :D)

hx~thanks for being the hero you naturally are (haha catching the thief!), and for being fun to be with(: you're a super big glutton! :D and you have the same views of stuff as me, so we're alike?! (haha strange, cos i'm not a glutton! :D) jkjk(:

ohmygosh i love you guys so much, i cant believe i'm never gonna see you guys again!): must keep in touch kay! i love you guys a lot!♥

2010-08-23T17:16:00.001+08:00

i'm addicted to princess diaries (the movie larh) again! it's just so nice(: even angus, thongs, and perfect snogging cant be compared to it!^^

yeah yeah i know. i have a lot to do): i'll just skip and skip and skip the unimportant parts(:

sigh, a whole lot of homework and i'm slacking here):

kay let's start with tuition homework(: tmr's my last class):

2010-08-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

HAHA damn funny! "i can finish watching 4 episodes of gossip girls in 3 hours!" :D

2010-08-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

now i post all the messy cheem stuff on my tumblr, so go there if you wanna read all the unorganized things that go through my pea brain.

you cheeseball! you goondoopie! (FOOD! :D)

2010-08-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

and because my life is so screwed up,
everything bad that can ever happen to someone happened to me.

yes, i know. you dont have to tell me how screwed up my life is.
i freaking dont need your pity.

i didnt post yesterday about my laptop, cos i found it a little too sad to post here. so far only like 2 people know of my laptop-bev and mario. my laptop's funeral was tragic; it's coffin is the rubbish bin D: and no one (except me) was there, cos no one cared about my poor laptop): my mom, for one, was the one who threw it on the ground; she wouldnt feel sad over her dead body. my dad has a better laprop, so i bet he's secretly feeling happy that it was mine and not his): and my sis... well she was reading a book/staring at her water babies -.-

i'm gonna go mugg now. ciao.

2010-08-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

i hope you're happy.

you know what they say about someone risking his/her own happiness just for their friends to be happy? well i dont think it's really true, cos i'm not happy if that's your definition of happiness, and i'm not going to happily watch you pursue that happiness.

well yeah. go enjoy yourself. i cant be bothered with you anymore /:

heck i have to stay up to finish my chinese pt script, then from tmr onwards i can start memorising(: wish me good luck! (yeah i bought good luck rocks from made in candy today! just for chinese pt! ikr, it's so yummy! :D)

2010-08-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

teehee i cant believe i just tumblred about the algerian gymnast! i'm going mad haha.

there's no band tmr): that means going to starbucks to mugg my head off before going for tuition! oh shit. which reminds me. tuition homework! LKY! D: {i realise lam ka ying has the same initials haha}

kay i gtg do my chinese pt now(:

ohno, sorry blog, i've been tumblring so much more. but it's okay, i'm not abandoning you yet(:

2010-08-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of people telling me what to do and trying to live up to everyone's expectations. i'm tired of faking a smile at them when actually i want to bash them up for treating me like shit. i'm tired of calling everyone my friends when secretly i want to run half of them over with a bulldozer. fuck off, this is my life, not yours, and you cant do nothing to control it. dont worry what i do.

2010-08-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

tumblr is fun to play!(: but i'm not gonna abandon my blogger just yet!(:

wecanlightupthesky.tumblr.com

2010-08-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD I DIDNT KNOW CSI COULD BE SO SADDDD! D;

well yeah usually it isnt. cos you dont get to know the victim much before they die, but well this time, the second victim was the witness, and he led a really really sad life): felt so sorry for him, cos he's mentally slow, but yet he works so hard to get a normal job D:

oh and weightlifters are scary): especially female ones): they're so small sized, but yet their muscles are like BOOMZ. haha sorry, i feel like ris low!

ohmygod shuyun what are you doing?! stop thinking about tv and start mugging! D:

;together

2010-08-15T14:22:00.003+08:00

Singapore YOG opening ceremony was actually quite nice, i wonder why people keep saying it was terrible. fine maybe it’s not as good as the 2008 beijing olympics one, but well considering the fact that 1) we’re a super small country, 2) most of the people worldwide dont even know we exist, i think we did pretty well. the show was pretty much enjoyable, and the dances were (or so i thought) better than the ndp ones, which made us look as lifeless as ever. and there were more pretty fireworks too! :D overall it was nice. except maybe the flag bearers walking the wrong way episode. the people in charge should have told them beforehand to follow the card holders in front of them. but i’m guessing it’s partially cos of the difference in language. and the fact that they couldnt have rehearsed that. well, good job singapore! you did all of us singaporeans proud! (except maybe the ones who hated it) we love you!♥

yay CSI date later! see you!(:

2010-08-15T09:58:00.000+08:00

hohoho shuyun you're screwed. like really. chinese pt is going to murder you, and no one would be able to save you! D:

ohno, my phobia of seeing really really small chinese characters strikes again; tried to save paper and ink by making the font like 9, and now i dont dare to read it! D: {but actually it's kind of readable}

ohmygod wtf, why is my sis learning about chen shui bian?! you know what? taiwan used to support mah ying jiu so much, but well after he became the new president, nothing much changed. other than the fact that taiwan is now closer to china. and that taiwan now invites students from other countries to go there and playyy!(: but haha 80 people signed up for those 30 seats, and now we have to do an interview D:

tsk who cares about the taiwan thing? even if i dont get to go, i'll be having lots of fun trying to finish that 300 episodes of san guo! :D and i gtg do my chinese pt and math aa first, then lit aa and history pt, then i can think about eyas, then holidays. D: i have a sad life, i know): but it's okay, i think everyone i know is like that. except maybe those who already finished studying. slash those in ns and can skip studying for a while.

chinese pt, here i come!(:

2010-08-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

ohno i'm sorry krysia and meilin and eleanor for not being able to make it to the nanyang funfair! D: really wanted to go, but oh well...

tskk i'm so irritated by everything right now. especially my sister. apparently she's super affected by friday the 13th, she kept getting hurt haha. (and she just bumped her back into the table, how the hell did she do that?! -.-) and she forbade me to go to the nanyang funfair (ikr, i mean wth, you're not my mom! =.=)

i think i'm gonna go sleep for a while, i feel super sleepy! then i'll start doing my chinese pt, which i havent even started on! D:

2010-08-11T21:49:00.001+08:00

ohno i'm so sad, i feel like i'm blogging so much more on tumblr nowadays, cos evverything that happens nowadays are so private! D: it's never happened before, i dont know what is wrong with me! D: it's okay, blog! i still love you!(:

ohmgod i have so much to do! D:
chinese-gonghan revision
math-1/2 a worksheet (did the other half in school haha)
cle: my notebook! ever since some defence thingum, i have never ever updated that damn notebook! shit now i have to redo sex ed )<
sl-plan when i'm going with sathia's group!
acp-write my damn proposal!
tuition-comprehension! D: about LKY! DD:
others-my scrapbook! didnt manage to finish it in time to pass it to my directs

kay gtg. ciao.

2010-08-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

seriously, dude, i just knew you like 3 days ago, and now you're like stalking people for me without me even asking you to do it?!

haha yeah, i'm his friend, i can simply go to his wall and see it for myself; i dont need your "inside help"! nahh i guess that's how i feel about people who are TOO nice. how nice of me huh(:

2010-08-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

went to serangoon early early in the morning to do my sl. the kids there were so cute! but when we walked in, there was this guy that kept screaming. yeah we were super freaked out.

oh and i'm super freaked out too cos there was this little boy that kept pulling my hand, and he's make me sit beside him, and WOULDNT LET ME GO. i was so damn scared that i'm like stuck there forever or something haha. and he kept making me pat his back -.- oh and he kept touching my chin with his fingers FULL OF PAINT! ohmygod and the first stroke he painted with the paintbrush was... erm... on my hand. on my freaking hand! then we played a game, and the little guy still wouldnt let go of my hand. and he kept wanting the ball, like a second after he just passed it to the next person! D: i was crying my soul out in my heart!): then we had to leave): it was sad though, when a little girl pulled my hand and asked me when we would come back, and i said "soon", but deep down i know that was a lie cos we might never be coming back. at least not this year. maybe next year we could do our sl based on this again...

then i went to united square to get farewell presents with rachel! speaking of which, i gtg back to novena soon for tuition! and i havent started on my farewell letters yet ohno! D: haha but anyway it was fun, cos we went to eat macs (and i had to push away the thought of FATS! that kept flashing past my mind when i was eating it) and then made in candy, and then toys r us, and then popular, and then the electronics store! haha basically it was running around looking at stuff, but buying everything we saw(: ily, rachel, we should go shopping tgt some other time! :D and watch inception too haha(:

kay i gtg now. byebye!

2010-08-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

oh. my. god. i am so freaking mad; i have never been madder.

why cant you just keep your freaking mouth shut, you HAD to spread a rumor like mad shit. the only difference between a human and an animal is that a human can exercise self control. you may say that you can, but do a self reflection and you'll realise. you'll realise that you're not much different from that stray cat that wanders around my estate looking for food (and people to stare at). and you're not much different than a pig which eats everything.

how many times have i told you that it wasnt true? how many times do i need to tell you? you may find it funny, you may think it's a joke, but IT'S NOT. put yourself in my shoes, what if i told the whole wide world knew about what happened between you and cough? would you like it? even better, what about telling cough that he's famous in our class? dont you think you might get angry? why cant you exercise even a little respect for your classmate? it's not as if i'm inferior to you; it's not as if i'm younger (actually based on birthdays i am, but still)!

you know what? i dont blame you anymore. i'll start blaming him. i thought he said he wouldnt spread it? i thought he said he'll keep his mouth shut? how come now the whole world knows huh? didnt he promise? WHAT THE HELL DID HE SAY HUH? WELL DID HE FREAKING DO WHAT HE SAID HE WOULD? DID HE KEEP HIS FREAKING MOUTH FUCKING SHUT? no, you dont have to answer that; i already know the answer. no, he didnt. I THOUGHT YOU SAID I SHOULD TRUST HIM, COS HE'S A MAN OF HIS WORD. WELL I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER, COS HE'S NOT A MAN, AND HE DEFINITELY DIDNT KEEP HIS WORD.

next person i'm pissed with. whatever. i dont freaking care. yeah yeah, go on about how pathetic that has made your life. ON FB. and i cant believe you told him. i mean yeah three people i dont even know know that rumor about me now, you had to add one more huh. well f you, you just made your life even worse by telling him, right? now will you stfu when you say your life is miserable? cos you made it even worse yourself.

i totally calmed myself down while msning jingjing and tumblring it. i'll feel retarded doing it again, so i shant.

i totally cant talk about what i did today in this post; once i see what i typed above, i'll go effing mad. gonna start a new post then.

heroes

2010-08-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

just watched three back to back episodes of csi on fox crime. awesome ttm! love csi!♥

chinese pt is t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e! my script is so messy, and i cant even be bothered to read it through! i think i'm going to faint): partially thanks to the medicine i ate just now too...

going to write out the ways the key points of the episodes i watched just now, just in case i need it for the csi exam. bye(:

2010-08-09T10:58:00.003+08:00

oh dear, i'm so dazzled by my geog and history notes. how am i supposed to survive my eyas in this state?!

dang i shouldnt have gone swimming at liuxu's house yesterday, now my cough has become worse):

i think i'm gonna go off and study my chinese pt sources for a while, then edit my script(:

-in case you guys were wondering where the link to my tumblr is, i took it off cos it's private-

kay i shall go mugg a while now(:

2010-08-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

have you ever had a moment in life, when you didnt want to face the truth; that you wished you never even knew the cold, lousy, hard, unsympathetic truth?

well yeah, everyone knows how it feels like.

it got me thinking.
i want to know the truth. i really want to. but then again, what if i wished i didnt once i knew?
not knowing the truth would be deceiving yourself. knowing the truth could, possibly, be hard. really hard. which one would you choose?
that brings me to my next point.
you know what they say about how much people are afraid to lose a friend once they had them?
you'd think knowing the truth would be the end of all your pointless doubts; the end of all your headaches. but is that true?
dont you think, that after you know the truth, that you would still be thinking whether that person's opinion of you has changed?
then wouldnt you be searching for THAT truth?

it's a never ending cycle, i realise. there will always be doubts and unanswered questions in our heads.whether you want to clear that doubt, that would be your own choice.
but promise me, dont look back. dont look back and regret; dont look back and say "i shouldnt have"
look at the odds. if it's against you, dont bother searching for the answer; you'll just be broken.
then it comes back to me. would clearing that doubt clear my head, or will it just cause even more doubts?
you know what? heck that, i dont want to bother myself anymore.

i'm sick): having a slight fever, but my bones and my throat are out to kill me): woke up with a headache, and ever since then my mind's been messed up. but i went for a run just now, and now it's so much clearer(: no wonder i love running by myself(:

you know what? i'm gonna go mug now. either that or i'm gonna finish handle with care(: jiayou!^^

2010-08-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

everyone's alking about dreams, thanks to inception. i watched the trailer for the 327512903576th time today, and i really do have to say, it seems like a nice movie! okay who am i to say that, since i didnt watch it.

i think i'm gonna go watch it with mario someday, when i have the time. meanwhile, let's go mugg so that we can make time for it!^^

2010-08-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

i'm not looking forward to sunday's visit to my mom's friend's house, cos there'll be like 3 geniuses there plus a retard (me). no i'm not anti-social, no i'm not scared of them, and no i dont not want to be their friend (okay maybe i do, but that's not the point) the point is, you keep pointing them out to me when i'm emtionally unstable, when i didnt do as well as i wanted to in something. they always seem to have perfect grades, perfect everything. and well maybe i'm allegic to these kinds of people. maybe i hate them. no i dont hate perfect people, i think they're perfect. i hate them because they seem to be my competitiors in everything, because you keep telling me how good they are, as if i'm inferior. fine i AM inferior, but i already know that, and i dont really need you to tell me.

i dont hate gepers, i think some are quite cool. i just hate that one in particular, because she never seems to be normal enough for me to talk to. i'm scared when i talk to her, i'm scared i'll say something wrongly, whether grammatically or (considering my speech skills), whether i put my idea across wrongly. she makes me feel even worse than when i'm in a one to one interview with an adult. intimidating would be understatement of the century!

handle with care is so sad. i wonder if willow would actually have understood what kind of things her parents and her sister are experiencing when she read the book. too bad she died):

2010-08-05T19:22:00.000+08:00

woah i havent had the time to blog in 3258190457145 years! D: so i'm gonna blog noww!(: {i have half an hour to do so before i mugg, but well half an hour is more than enough time. right?}

tuesday-went to united square early to meet krysia. haha went to macdonalds and talked a whole lot of crap, attempted to finish my tuition homework (which i did, but didnt hand in cos my cher wasnt there and i wanted to ask her a question regarding it, in case i screwed that question up). then for some reason the china guy (sorry, i'm not racist, but i dont know his name, so i shall call him that haha sorry!) appeared in macs and invaded our privacy by sitting at the table beside us D: so we ate and did our homework (a bit haha) and then we went to look around at the stores!(: haha then we went to class and realised that there was only the china guy there, so we put down our bags and decided to go walk around (and buy chocolates) again! :D it was fun, at least better than staying in school with nothing to do): gah i only have three more lessons in tll, i'll miss krysia and hx and isabel and yi xian (and the rest too haha) so much! D: had so much fun with them, love you, honeys!♥

wednesday-the sun was super super cruel to us when we were standing under the sun. i mean we had a shelter, but still, i was hot. very. mario fell sick, GET WELL SOON! and the rest of us died of heat and boredom (after majula singapura we just sat there and did nothing /:

thursday-got back my geog marks and i'm super mad. tried to give mr yeo the death glare, but i probably failed cos he was still so gay. and he asked the class what was wrong with us cos we were so quite hahahaha. cos we all got so freaking low, and you're so freaking gay! D: that's why we were all so quite, except maybe jinyao, cos she missed 4.0 by 1 mark or something, and she was shouting it to mr yeo/the whole class. i know how it feels, i got the same thing for mid year...
my chinese marks improved, but i wasnt high about it, thanks to geog. i thought geog's 4.0 could be mantained, but well i thought wrong. D:
btw, i suspect that i touched hepatitis b positive cockle's blood! D:

dammit the red scars are so ugly! (i slashed my wirst with my ruler, but well i didnt cut myself haha) as a reminder of my geog marks.
geog: for eyas, i'm going to conquer you. like how i did in mid year. i know i will.

2010-08-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

i always thought it was super familiar when justin bieber said "it's jb" in the beginning of "love me". now i know why. jb is johor bahru! haha sorry justin bieber, no offence meant! and no offence meant to you too, johor bahru(:

2010-08-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

of all the damn words in this world, there is one word i hate the most.
i hate hearing it, i hate having to do it, i hate it.
prioritise.

shit it shouldnt even appear in my blogpost, it's just too ugly to be there.

prioritising.
no, it's not that i cant prioritise; it's just that i cant relate to it.
i mean, what the hell is the point of prioritising if you have to do everything anyway?

like prioritising homework.
what the hell tells you which subject is more important than the other?
what the hell tells you that you should do that piece of homework first, in case later you dont have enough time to finish the rest?
which goddamn teacher told you to discriminate, even worksheets, based on their subject?

i'm not trying to make you judge the homeworks on the same level.
in fact, i dont.
but well i dont discriminate them either. but that's only cos i hate all of them at the same level.

you know what?
i dont know what i'm talking about.
i think i'm gonna go to my favourite corner and sob for a while.
before i go back to do what i LOVE to do most: homework. and this time, tuition homework to add to the damn pile.

i promise you,
someday i will start to become immune to this whole thing
start to become numb and unfeeling.
start to rot and die.
i wouldnt mind.
i bet you wouldnt either.

now i know why emo kids like to cut their wrists.
cos it serves as a reprieve from the kind of problems we're suffering from right now; it's like beer and smoking to guys.
it isnt the pain we want to feel from it, it's really the fact that you can still feel pain that makes it feel so good.
i cant say i didnt try it. just not with a knife. my wrist is too pretty to be cut up by some rusty pen-knife.

2010-08-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

i bet your life isnt half as sucky as mine.

2010-08-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

i just realised that i DO blog everyday.

i blog so much it's an addiction now!
i cant believe i used to think it was boring and pointless.

whatever, i'm going to do my homework now!(:

2010-08-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

happy birthday, granddaddy and krysia and sussan!(:

krysia~thanks for being such an awesome tuition buddy and going down to buy m&ms/chips with me!(: haha ohmygosh we gossip so much i cant remember what i said to you and what i didnt! :D stay awesome always, and you still owe me an outing on my birthday! :D ily, krysia!♥

granddaddy~happy birthday! yayy i love the awesome sushi dinner!(: ate a lot and i feel bloated now): anyway, thanks for being my bestest bestest friend since young! i remember when i used to like to run out of the house to the shop nearby to buy coke, and i'd pester you to come along (and to bring some cash too haha) when daddy and mommy didnt allow me to go(: haha and i remember when you used to play lame games with me when i got bored of watching tv and doing my homework. oh and teaching me all the different techniques to chess. (though i still suck at it haha sorry!) at least i beat my cousin to it after that! :D ily, granddaddy!♥

sussan~hey senior! thanks for always being there to help me improve!(: i love the indiv time we had for perseus haha!^^ aww man i'm going to miss silvercrest and perseus! D: but anyway, jiayou with schoolwork and everything; all the best!(: ily!♥

yayy i'm so happy i'm dizzy!(: {really, i'm really really dizzy}

2010-07-31T11:27:00.000+08:00

it's a saturday morning, and i have nothing to do.
crap how i wish it was last week's weekends, so excitingly packed by rgssb performances and espressione: genesis. haha and meeting jingyi's *cough* and bev's friend *cough*
oh oh and walking around orchard mrt looking for clara!(: {clara: "i'm wearing a purple shirt!" me: *looks around and sees an old lady in a purple shirt* "woah clara, you age so fast!"}
and walking around b1 of far east plaza with nothing to do after getting sandy's present. and getting $2 poorer.

esplanade was the ♥. but the acoustics were pretty bad too. i kindof realised it only after talia uploaded the recordings on fb... speaking of concert halls, vch closed last week for renovations, i think. aww man i love that place! (thanks to cadenza XII haha)

whoo csi rocks ttm! my fav is ny and miami (haha miami is really dirty and sick, but like krysia said, "it's entertaining!" haha naughty krysia! but well said!) :D

love the way you lie-eminem is a freaking genius! (the lyrics are sooo true!) {guess that's why they call it window pane} whoo!~

btw, thanks everyone who wrote me cheer up letters when i got mad over the csi group! love you all!(:

meanwhile, you effing arsehole how dare you do that to me and mario! D<

2010-07-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

i've been writing WAY too many diary entried in my notebook. if someone chances upon my notebook i think i'll just DIE.

i should stop. but i cant help it! everytime i get bored in class, i start stoning, then i think of stuffs in the past, then i get overwhelmed by emotions, and then i just start scribbling them into my notebook.

i suspect that i have emotions disorder; my mood swings are sooo bad.
in fact, i was super happy just now, but when i went out of my room and realised that my chocolates were gone from the fridge, i threw a tantrum and started screaming at my sis for stealing them.

btw, i've fallen in love with a new thing (no longer m&ms) PRAWN CRACKERS!^^
but someone told me they're fattening! D: and i do feel a lot fatter haha

speaking of which, my fbt size was originally s, but when isabel asked me for my fbt size i said m cos i felt fat and didnt want to risk it haha. oh oh oh! isabel's getting me my first curve cut fbts! (cos she's getting me a presenttt! haha)^^ i'm so sick and tired of my straight cuts -.-

i want black, hot pink! (krysia said it looks gay, but my straight cut with a black tee is ♥), lime greeeen, light blueee (mario said it's gross! D:), purple (i wouldnt forget my fav colour!), and red curve cuts!(:

yayy it's a friday! (i just realised! yeah i know i'm slow)

sighh off to do my hw):

2010-07-29T12:49:00.000+08:00

F*** you, bitch.

i hope you're happy now; you made mario and i suffer. again.
you know what? sometimes i blame fate. like now.

Fate, this is all your fault. if you hadnt made my life suck like that, i wouldnt be so effing upset right now.
if you hadnt made me so fated to be stuck with HER, i just might be able to maintain my 4.0 for science this year. but no, you had to ruin the hope i had in science. you had to make the 4.0 i love the most disappear from my report book. you may say that i still have the other 4.0s from the other subjects, but dont you know how much i love THAT one?

no, i guess you dont understand. after all, you're not the one who loves science so much; you're not the one who wants to be a doctor. you may say i'll probably change my mind in a year's time, considering my flicker mindedness, but no, i'm sure i wouldnt this time.

if i dont get into bio ra, fate, it will be all your fault. bio ra may not be all i ever wanted, but i'm sure that it is what i want the most. trust me, i'm willing to trade anything to get into it.

if i dont get into it, fate, i'm going to hunt you down and destroy you. who cares if i die in the process; death is so much better than living this sad pathetic life.

you know what i said about being happy with my life no matter what happens? well one of my sentences, i'm sure, was "cos i know it could have been worse". but now i know, sometimes it cant. no matter what you do, it just cant.

FML.

2010-07-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

for some strange reason, i cant wait for rehearsal tomorrow haha. i guess i miss my flute too much...

oh well i shall go read keeping faith now. cant believe i havent finished it -.-

2010-07-28T15:23:00.000+08:00

when will this cycle ever end?
it seems that the same thing happens to me every time
there's no change; nothing new.
i dont want it to be that way.

nah what am i crapping about?
i love my life the way it is, no matter how crappy it is.
cos i know it could have been worse.

2010-07-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

yay i managed to finish my sip yesterday night!^^

watches ip man today. omg damn scary!): the fat guy shouldnt have died D;
but anyways ip man won, so yay!^^
and for some reason the man who got shot in the head by the jap in the first movie recovered like nothing ever happened to him -.-

oh well now that sip is over, i have to move on to chinese and history pts. 2 projects down (geog and sip), 2 more to go!^^

2010-07-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the (total dicks)
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate (lose all that weight?)
And (Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!)

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

The Whole (damn) World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who's (in the club and who's on the drugs)
(And who's throwin up before they digest)

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
(And you still listen to the same shit you did back then)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much - the same as - I was back then(hold en)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

omg i love this song! so cute haha^^
and it's kind of true.

high school never ends~
but well maybe i dont want it to(:

(school's kind of fun, it's like going to the zoo!^^)

2010-07-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

i always thought it would be easy to convince yourself.
i never had a trouble with it.
but somehow, when it comes to you,
i just cant change my perception

it's not something you said
it's not something you did
so what is it?

i'm confused at my unusual stubborness

2010-07-27T08:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder;
if i hadnt started it all, would i be as sad?
if i hadnt been too hopeful, would i be as let down?
if i hadnt enjoyed it so much, would i be as nauseous of the past?
if i hadnt been your friend, would i be more eager to go?

i guess it's my fault, then.
i cant blame anyone for this.

i cant change what will happen
i cant stop it from happening
i can only wait and see
wait and see how sad i would be
how much tears i would shed.

if mommy knew about our friendship bonds, would she still have made me quit?

i'll miss you. yes i will.

2010-07-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

i'm bored. arent you bored too? sigh, this month's going to be a looong month, so many projects due! D:
and there are 2 farewells.
why cant things remain in its best state forever? why do things always have to end up with a goodbye? why do people have to leave? why do relationships have to be ruined? why? D:
i'm going to miss my directs and my tuition friends so much by the end of this month.

you know what they say about taking things for granted? now i know how horrible it feels to have them all grabbed away from you. but it's difficult not to take things for granted; it's natural that one thinks that once something is hers, she will have it forever.

sigh.
farewell emo posts later.
sip first.

sip-shit in progress. yeah sip, leave me alone. either that or get yourself done asap so i can hand in on wed.

at least i have tmr to complete it; or i'd be really really screwed.

2010-07-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

i've got A LOT of homework to finish before i go to the ESPLANADE♥ today. i have never loved that place more, what with our last concert with our directs, our last concert with silvercrest and perseus, and us winning sibf div 1!(:

i'm getting a headache from all the chinese and the garlic. (sip lit review, that's why the garlic) urgh how i wish i could go to sleeeeep D:

yesterday i had an awesome time with clara and mario before the concert! we spent 5 mins shopping, 1h eating (i wonderrrr whyyy :D}, and 10min coaxing mario to watch the dance to lucifer and another 10min persuading mario to not waste her food! haha then we rushed to the concert and met bev, jingjing, weithing, yilei, kathleen, jolene, jingyi and shibei there! haha then we talked about bev's *cough* and jingyi's *cough* {haha we were pointing and laughing and in the end both *cough*s saw us haha! oops!} too bad SHE wasnt there, she would have died of envy when she saw who *COUGHH* was with haha

the concert was awesome, and rachel chan looked super pretty!(: haha loved her eyes and hair :D

waka waka is such a catchy song! i love it^^

2010-07-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

awesome ttm!^^ omg but minho so poor thing, cant dance): but he was still so serious about it haha.
like clara said, without the 2nd lead dancer the dance feels so incomplete D:
lucifer is awesome!<3

2010-07-24T13:56:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear
That you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here (I'm dying here)
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look you in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

And it's all here i
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

I bleed my heart out just for you

huixuan got me hooked on this song again.

2010-07-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

sibf. the concert hall was so echoey! D: the songs werent that clear, but i guess it was alright... the results will be out at 10! >90! :D

2010-07-21T20:40:00.002+08:00

LUCIFER MV IS OUT!^^

kay i gtg. byebye!(:

2010-07-21T20:03:00.001+08:00

urgh i hate it that i've done a perfect one, only to realise that i had to put them under freaking subs, so now i have to regroup everything. dammit i hate pts.

2010-07-21T20:02:00.001+08:00

i didnt get my geog marks back today. but well i wasnt thinking straight last night (cos i was sleepy) and i forgot that today there's no geography lesson!

okay i gtg do my geog pt now. if i dont finish it today, i'm really really really screwed! D:

2010-07-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes what i need is just consolation from someone. but no, you dont do that. instead, you make me feel even worse by saying stuff like "if only you had gotten this right you would have gotten 4.0" and yadda.

i know i missed 4.0 by one freaking mark, and i am damn freaking pissed, but well you cant deny the fact that that is my ability. maybe i had loads of careless mistakes, but careless mistakes are still mistakes, and you cant complain to someone for their careless mistakes just because they are careless mistakes. fine i know i dont make sense, but well i'm chanelling between english and chinese, so my sentence structure is a bit off... (and i'm sleepy)

anyway today was a sad sad day, and i really really hope tmr would be better...oh and i hope that my geog marks would come out tmr to cheer me up a bit (unless i miss 4.0 by a little too) ohmygod if that happens i'll just start crying my eyeballs out in school.

lit and eng and history and chinese can all wait until after i finish playing. i really really dont want to get them back...

think about it this way. the sooner you get them back, the sooner you can sleep well.
speaking of which, i want to do.
but i still need to finish my half sihan half gonghan. cos there's so much chinese hw due on thursday i dont think i can finish them all on wednesday!
kay i gtg no matter what (to sleep or to do chi hw, that is the question) wtf, do chi hw larh. or not you screwed. and you still want to go taiwan immersion somemore! you dont do hw no chance one!

you know what i hate about you?
your inconsistency.

2010-07-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

teehee i still have nothing to do for ict cos i finished my project haha. oh well i shall go fb for a while, camwhore for a while then play for a while? gah idk, that's what i hate about surfing the net when no one's online D: except maybe my classmates, but they're in like the same room as me and it will be plain retarded if you start chatting to each other when you're in the same room!

haha our survey reached 191 responses. not 200 yet! but it's okay, we'll collect until around 300 then we'll end it and start interpreting data?

okay i shall go play orisinal.com now. it's really lame but well desperate times calls for desperate measures!

2010-07-19T15:46:00.001+08:00

KitYin fell in class today and couldnt move cos it hurt. i dont know what happened, but well i went to class and saw her just lying there sobbing behind my seat. she's in KK hospital, and she's gonna stay overnight. oh well... get well soon, KitYin!

dammit, i've got replacement class later. it's going to be so awkward. no one would be talking, except maybe people to the people they know. dammit i wouldnt be able to find anyone i know (let's pray hard hard that i would find one of my pri school friends there or something)
but haha guess what. i'm going to go for replacement with blue fingers! cos i did CSI today and did fingerprinting. now my fingers are ALL blue! haha everyone is gonna think i'm some mad toot who has got nothing better to do than to colour her fingers with a very ugly shade of blue.

still in school worrying my ass off for my geog pt and my sip report. dammit ms tan didnt take it from her locker yet. dammit if i had known then i wouldnt have come back to school after the movie and borders; i would have just gone home to chiong it out. then i could pass it to her todayyy! now i have to hand it in tmrrr! D:

dang it that means chionging both sip report and geog pt this week. oh and sibf pracs etc. dammit i cant wait for this week to be over!

i like the old you better. really.

2010-07-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

i decided not to read newsweek after almost dozing off haha.

OHMYGOODNESSSSS WE HAVE 72 RESPONSES TO OUR SURVEY ALRRR OHMYGOODDNESSS! HAHA YAY I'M SO HIGH I'M LOSING MY FACE IN FRONT OF LIKE EVERYONE RIGHT NOWWW TEEHEEE.

yay now i can sleep in peace!^^
yay ily all soooo much yay ohmygod(:

2010-07-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

whoo i finally bothered to change my blogskin^^
hope this one's nicer than the other one; i took decades to decide on this. i swear the skins in blogskins.com arent changing -.-

woohoo i finished my geog pt, my tll hws, my math hw, my geog notes and some tuition hw my sis made me do for her. haha i was so productive today!~

i think i'm gonna go search for more hw, then i'll go read newsweek. i'll ttyl if i get bored with newsweek, but i'll most likely go read yesterday's papers haha. sorry mommy, i havent read it yet!):

my finger hurts): whyy! D:

2010-07-18T10:14:00.001+08:00

ohmygod serafina! fucking stop it!

just fucking stop irritating me and screaming like a mad crow! i bet you dont mind though, cos you're not the one who gets scolded everytime you scream. you're not the one who has to get scolded and slapped in the face for bullying your sister.

you know, i dont pick fights with you. i let you off most of the time. i didnt scream when you stole my potato chips. i didnt scream when you poured daddy's coffee into my milo. i didnt scream when i had to pour my favourite drink away. i didnt scream at you when you irritated me. i just asked you to stop it. and you had to take it like i just threw a lorryfull of expletives at you and start screaming your head off. you just had to run around the house waking mommy up and telling her that i bullied you. you just had to do that, didnt you?

i freaking got slapped for asking you to stop irritating me. in the face, dammit. and you dont want to know how much it hurts.

it's really fun to bully your sister, isnt it? is that what they teach you in school? how to bully your sisters 101? well you'd better fucking stop using whatever tricks you have on me, cos someday i just might try it too. i know i'll get caned and grounded whatever, but well if it's supposed to be fun, dont deprive me of it!

oh fuck her, she's already p4, will she just freaking STOP acting cute and STOP irritating the shit out of me, cos i cannot stand it anymore.

this time i'm not going to let her go. this time i'm going to take revenge.
serafina, if you're smart, you'd take my advice and fucking stop it.

2010-07-18T09:05:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to youu
happy biiiirthday to taeminnnnnnnnnnnnnn
happy birthday to youuuu!
^^

taemin's so young. but i guess he's not my favourite. sorry taemin!

2010-07-17T14:28:00.001+08:00

Sticks and stone may break my bones,/ but words can also hurt me./ Stones and sticks break only skin,/ while words are ghosts that haunt me.// Slant and curved the word-swords fall/ to pierce and stick inside me./ Bats and bricks may ache through bones,/ but words can mortify me.// Pain from words has left a scar/ on mind and heart that's tender./ Cuts and bruises now have healed;/ it's words that i remember

it's not a famous poem, it's not very cheem, and i dont even know who the poet is, but well it's really a nice poem, cos it's really true.

2010-07-17T12:23:00.000+08:00

i have never felt so alone in my entire 13 years of life. everyone's around, but i'm alone. it's not because no one's talking to me; everyone does, since i'm so talkative all the time (SO not my point). but well even though they do, no one truly understands me. you know what they say about people liking you for who you are? well i cant blame anyone for not doing that, because everyone thinks they know who i am, but the truth is, no one does. maybe i dont know me myself.

i guess it's just another effect of reading jodi picoult's books. the first part of "Keeping Faith" (pun!^^) really made me weep my heart out. but it gets better, and now it's not so sad anymore.

2010-07-16T21:05:00.003+08:00

sure, lots of people believe in god. lots of people used to believe the world was flat, too

jodi picoult is really the emo-est person ever. reading her books makes me feel like i'm absolutely unworthy of living on this planet together with such emotionally strong people. meanwhile, what do i do? weep while reading about their life -.-

taiwan immersion. i know weiqi, jingyi and clara are going. anyone else? i wanna go, but i dont think i can stay sane looking at chinese words everywhere for 3 weeks! but oh well i could buy lots of cds there! kay i'm going(: haha coaxing myself was easy(:

to all people emo-ing right now: cheer up! there will always be a solution to everything; look for it, or if you dont succeed, forget it and move on.

trust me, i know how it feels to forget something THAT important. i lost a hundred bucks worth of tees, skirts and shoes all in a night, and i cried. i cried a hell lot. but well it couldnt change anything, and until now i still havent found them. i dont really want them anymore except the black tee and the purple chequered skirt. oh well. oh and my phone and wallet too. but my point is, it's either you solve it, or you forget about it and move on. it's going to be sad and torturous, but you'll get over it.

2010-07-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

you dont make me nervous anymore. thanks though, for training me to become who i am right now. i used to suffer from a nervous breakdown every time, and now i'm fine(:

2010-07-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

eclipse was maddd awesome! :D
stared and giggled at taylor lautner's muscles(: totally loved the part in the tent when jacob kept bella warmm! "face it, i'm hotter than you" haha i swear it is so totally true! :D bella should totally choose jacob over edward. i mean edward's so... hairy! and erm mature? (he's like a million years old!) meanwhile, jacob is so... muscular and hot haha.

but i think jane looks prettier than bella. and rosaline looks super scary and intimidating, especially in the kitchen scene. oh and it was super awkward when victoria died, cos i started laughing while everyone else were staring at her body-less head, and then there was this angmorh sitting in front of me, and she freaking turned her head to look at me haha wth i was damn embarrassed -.- but anyways eclipse was nice ttm!^^

now i have three jodi picoult storybooks waiting for me teehee i'm going to have a hell of a time this weekend burying my head in books and all the issues of newsweek i never had time to read! (i like newsweek SOO much better than the economist, cos the words are SOO much bigger and my head hurts SOO much less)
yay for all the things i couldnt do until TODAY! :D

exams were a breeze. whether or not i did well, i'm not sure. but i guess i'll leave the worrying for later. for now i'm going to enjoy my books and mags^^ and anyways i know i tried my very very best (you should totally look at me in action!^^) the grades i get simply shows my ability. if i'm below average, well just catch up! but really quickly. at least in time for EYAs so that i can get my 3.6 average to apply for bio ra.

oh did i mention? my bag was soaked by the rain on my way to shaw, and now my notebook, r&j book as well as my handbook are wet. oh and my zigs marker's ink totally spreaded so there's like this smudge there where my titles are supposed to be. good job, rain. you're like my new best friend now for doing that crap to me.

2010-07-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

i just realised how emo i can be at times. it's really not directed at anyone when i say "you", the whole post is just something in my heart i have to let out and tell everyone so that i can feel better.

lit exam's tomorrow, and i'm going to read act 1 again just to familiarise myself with the general plot of that act, as well as the characters and what they say. oh and i have to chiong sip report by tomorrow so that i can submit my draft 1 to ms tan for proof reading and suggestions.

well at least i have eclipse after exams with clara and sandy to look forward to, or else who knows, i may just go insane and end up having to see a psychiatrist...

i dont know what to do, i dont want to miss you guys, but i guess the decision is not mine to make.

2010-07-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

we've been torn apart. i'm sorry, it's not because i hate you; it's because i was a coward and couldnt take it anymore. i know i'm going to regret it someday but i'm ready; i'm ready to face the consequences of the choices i made.

i'm tired of always getting my hopes up, then letting them crash. so i've decided i'm going to stop. i'm going to stop trying to make myself happy so that when i'm upset i dont have a reason to cry; so that when i'm upset i wont think of what could have been possible.

it's not you; i've just given up everything i ever wanted. i'm going to help myself get up from my shit of a life and start anew. i'm going to forget our experiences-all the tears and the laughter.

i know the next time i see you i'll probably start crying inside, but i'm going to be strong and continue with what i've decided for myself. it's what i've chosen, and you're not going to change it no matter how much you try to persuade me now. i'm sorry, i have to let you go.

2010-07-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

haha ohmygosh the tll lit essay that i handed in is so ego-boosting. i got an A teehee! :D and ms wong said i can do so well when i actually put my heart into it. but aha as if i will actually believe that, i bet she just missed my retardedness in the month of june, or maybe it was just a spark of my brilliantness. but still, i never actually knew i had those sparks :D

english english english sa is TMR! haha some of my friends didnt even know it was tomorrow haha *laughs* well now i'm telling you, it's tomorrow! D: but yet we dont have the day off even though it's exam day!

and lit and chinese is the day after tmr! speaking of which, i'm watching eclipse after that with clara yay!^^ (i can FINALLY watch it haha) then we'll go kino/borders (idk, see how) to get some books! -HOUSE RULES!- :D cant wait!^^ but aww man mario cant come cos she cant watch anything supernatural D:

oh you know what? i just might be going for a taiwan immersion trip. i managed to persuade my mom, but i dont really know if i can not feel homesick since i'll be gone for like three weeks if i do go. but well i guess it'll be awesome fun! :D

kay i gtg mugg now, byebyes!(:

2010-07-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

i finish taking down my eng narrative notes!^^ now it's time to cram everything into my head before thursday...

okay i shall go sleep now. maybe i'll do the studying-at-night-instead-of-slacking-by-ass-off thingum tmr again. haha it's kind of fun(: and i still have to finish my sip report this fri if i want ms tan to read through it and give me comments. oh and tmr i have to cram the whole of my act one notes into my head!

at least they told us it would be from act one instead of not telling us anything and making us read everything ._.
oh well r&j, dont think i gave up on you, i'm going to drill you tmr night after i'm done suffocating my eng narrative essay notes! then i'll be done with you two for the rest of my life. (not really, i still have next term boohoo D:)

oh well, it's not as if i didnt forsee this when i made that choice.

good night everyone! i'm really sleepy now! (HAHA i've been sleepy since like what, 6 in the morning)
and my maid's sleepy too (she's been reading my present perfect and my current science and my seventeen magazines! ohmygod!)

2010-07-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

hi friends! haha listening to youtube while blogging in ict. cos i finished last week's project and have nothing to do now! haha ict ftw!^^

ohno i'm suddenly super scared for lit and chinese and eng exams on thursday and friday! D:

romeo oh romeo, wherefore are thou romeo? deny thy father and refuse thy name, blahblah and i will no longer be a capulet!

haha that's like the only quote i can remember, and it's not even complete -.-

oh and i think friar lawrence and the nurse should get married. see why my lit is screwed? i keep thinking about pairing everyone up when i read r&j, and i end up thinking they are ACTUALLY married. but well if everyone came in pairs and the no. of guys = the no. of girls, that would be damn cool! :D

sorry. anyways, i need to go read more crime fictions for english, and then read r&j for lit. someone tell me how i can actually revise for chinese! D:

haha oh oh oh! i did my tuition homework! haha i'm so proud of myself, arent you?(:
oh and i finally managed to pack my worksheets into files! :D
and i finally started worrying about my exams
and i finally start taking homework seriously.
have i changed or what?!

2010-07-12T20:17:00.001+08:00

because i dont give a freaking damn

2010-07-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

21 guns. it's so emotional, yet it's rock.
ironic, isnt it, that the older generations think that we're people with little emotion since we listen to loud and beaty songs, but this song proves to all of them that we, teenagers of the 21st century, have just as much emotion, if not more, as them.

2010-07-12T16:57:00.000+08:00

i'm really sorry i wanted to be free from you. i know i made the wrong choice, but i'm ready to face the consequences.
it's just that you keep appearing in my head nowadays, and i start recalling the fun times we used to have together. i really miss them. i dont know if you have changed, but well i'll love the old you i knew forever(:

i never expected myself to say this, but well i regret setting myself free.
i may not love you as much as i used to, but you'll always be one of my bestest friends~

2010-07-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

i love the song and the drama!♥

2010-07-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOSH OHMYGOSH OHMYGOSH FIFA FINALS ARE TONIGHTTT! HAHAHA SPAIN IS GOING TO WIN WIN WIN! GO SPAIN! 我永远支持你! haha sorry. see, that's what you get if i mugg chinese the whole afternoon D:

haha i'm suddenly super excited about something, but i myself dont know what it is.

oh and i heard that sheryl (gina's direct) is going to try for rwinds! idk if it's true, but if it is, and if they need to aud you or something, GOOD LUCK SHERYL!(: you're super pro and all, so i know you can do it(:

2010-07-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

i am so bored i could die.

i'm supposed to be busy right now haha oops.
kay i shall off the comm and go mugg.
byes(:

2010-07-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

i am disgusted by myself.
look at the different attitudes i show different people.
who am i?

2010-07-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i ask myself, is what i told you how i actually felt?
actually i dont know the answer myself; but i'll say no.

do you remember my eye that hurt yesterday? well it's swollen today. not very, but just the corner of my left eye. haha so now my left eye is like half double eyelids and half single eyelid. ugly much.

oh and guess what. i found my ruler. it was in my r&j book! too bad i had already gotten another one -.-

kay off to mugg for r&j. just got scolded by mommy again for wasting time):

yay r&j!^^ (haha wth, i hate it!)